Monday, December 17, 2012

December 17, 2012

I can't believe I've been in Korea for 2 weeks already! This is insane.
This week was a lot harder thats for sure! I've been struggling with the language more and more each day it seems. My sweet companion reminded me that Heavenly Father is probably just teaching me the lesson of patience. Haha the saying really is true that Asian speaking missionaries learn patience and humility on their missions. I haven't had any problems adjusting to the food or anything, its spicy if you make it spicy so as long as I don't putt too much spices in it I'm fine :) 

My companion cooks korean food often so I get that daily :) Mostly just different soups and lots of rice and Kimchi! We've been able to go out to eat at a few Korean places so far where we all sit on the ground, but most of the members houses I've been to have tables to eat up to. My area is called Bupeoung it in Incheon, I heard that the people are a lot nicer here than in Seoul so I feel blessed! We had a sisters conference this week at the Preidents house, it was a lot of fun! We learn't about the importance of enjoying the Journey, and embracing changes and let challenges change ourselves for the better. Often we are afraid to stretch ourselves, but if we don't stretch ourselves and let the trials and changes make us better people then we simply are just enduring each day until it passes. ( and lets be serious, thats not fun for anyone). 

I'm still learning each and everyday that I need to rely on God more and stop worrying about my own abilities, I'm sure it will be a lesson I'm going to have to keep re-learning each and every day. It's funny because before my mission I felt like I knew how a mission was going to be, I though it would be more about helping others come unto Christ - but so far it's been about personally learning how to do it. I am learning more and more about how I need to change and be more obedient and let God take over my life. It's a hard thing to fully trust God enough to put yourself into uncomfortable situations that will stretch you and hurt. Even though each day is harder than the day before, I am grateful for them because I am learning more and more each day. ( Of coarse thats easy to say on P-day where I don't have to worry about anything too much :P ) 


Miracle of the week: 
Yesterday after church our appointment cancelled on us, I was frustrated with the language, and my companion wasn't feeling good. We both didn't really feel like going out and talking to people on the street, but we did because we needed to! The people seemed to be more rude that afternoon, and we weren't having any success. After a while I said a prayer that I could just have the spirit with me, that I could make it though the afternoon. Sometimes all it takes is a little prayer and God will show you miracles. A few minutes laster we decided to talk to this lady riding a bicycle, and she did not want to talk to us at all! But as soon as we turned around, being rejected again, this lady ran up to us with a HUGE smile on her face! She was so excited to see us, and was so grateful to run into us again. Apparently we had talked to her a few days earlier and she had lost out number, she was afraid she would never see us again and was so grateful to run into us. I don't know if anything will happen because of it, but it was a tender mercy from God. I learn't that even though we weren't having any success, and we were both having a rough day- because we were obedient and did what we were supposed to do at that moment, God placed us in the path of that lady. It reminded me that even though I may not feel adequate enough, as long as I am obedient and go out everyday, God will do the rest. 


Christmas is Next week! I hope all of you have an amazing Christmas, and remember Christ in your life. I've only just starting to appreciate how important family is in our lives, I wish I would have spent more time with all of my family and friends more the past few years rather that traveling and working. They are really the thing that matters most! I love all of you, and am grateful for your support!! 

<3 Love Always, 
Sister Sulz. 

P.s- I'm sorry I haven't responded to all of your letters yet, if you could do me a favor and send me your addresses... maybe send them to my sister Rachael Robertson and she can forward them to me so that I can respond, I accidentally sent most of my letters home without taking down the addresses first :( Opps. 


Korea from a Graiffes Eye view: 
Thank you for the E-mail!!! you are such a sweet heart! Here are some fun things about Korea: 
Fun Facts: 
1) There are 7 Elevens and Baskin Robbins EVERYWHERE!

2) Men spit on the street all the time. 
3) HUGE scarfs are super popular! 
4) I totally saw a Korean man with a sweet mullet today :P BEST! 
5) In all the churches there are little " chalk brush" cleaners... and I though they were toasters? hahaha My companion laughed forever when I told her that. 

Monday, December 10, 2012

.From Korea.

I'M HERE! :)
It seems like a dream that I'm actually in KOREA! How fun is this?I just love my life haha. 
Okay so I lost most of my e-mailing time trying to get this other computer to work, but I got onto this one after my companion so I'll be quick!

1)- KOREA IS SOOOO COLD! haha I know I'm Canadian and everything, but seriously! So cold. Our first 2 nights at our little apartment out heat was not working, so we froze. Our apartment is so stinking cute tho! It's older, and tinny. But I love it! Sister Pak Sora ( my trainer) is Korea, and so much fun! We found a minni christmas tree in a closet at our place, so we set it up and decorated it! ( Mom I got your christmas package! But I had too much stuff to take on the subway my first day so I had to leave it at the mission home until the 24th) THANK YOU THO! I love you so much. Also I tried to call you from the airport but I never got through? I'm allowed to call home on Christmas, so I'll need the best number to reach you at. 

I am super blessed, sister pak is perfect for me! SHE HAS STUMP THUMBS!!!!! haha I couldn't believe it when I saw them- instant 정 :)  
2) The food is AWESOME! It's weird, and different- but I haven't tried anything I didn't like so far. Our Bishop took us out for dinner our second night here! :) Other than that we've just been cooking for ourselves at home. It's nice that Sister Pak is Korea because she can cook Korean food! My Korean is still pretty terrible, but I am learning so much every day. 

3) We are "White Washing" my first area, meaning that my training and I are both completley new to this area. We don't have any investigators, we don't know the area, and are trying to get to know the members.At church on sunday we both had to speak/give a simple testimony in Korea. There are probably only like 25 -30 members.. So small. There is so much room for growth- however this first few days didn't seem to be very productive for missionary work, we did a lot of tracting ( which I love!!) and contacted all the old investigators/members but still no success. It looks like we will be starting from scratch!! I was feeling a little discouraged yesterday, but this morning I read in Alma 30-32 and felt like what Alma experiences was EXACTLY what we are experiencing here. And before I read I said a prayer to Heavenly Father that sounded just like Alma 31:34 asking what we could do to find success. Then I read 32:1&2- and realized that we just need to get out there and WORK! work work work. We need to talk to everyone and after we labor much we will find someone. The biggest obstacle is that there are SOOOOOO many churches here. It's insane. I've never seen so many churches before, there is at least 1-3 on every block. There are a ton of people trying to preach their message, so not too many people want/ or care to listen to us. BUT I have faith, that as we love and serve these people- God will put the ones who are prepared into out paths. Missionary work is a lot more different that I imagined it. Too often I think I only heard the success stories, the baptisms, seeing peoples lives change from hearing this message. You don't often realized how days were put in on the streets talking to people, handing out pass along cards, books of mormon, knocking on doors with out any success. We haven't talk any lessons yet, and most of our stats for the week were 0 ... ( I felt like the missionaries on the Best Two Years). But I have Faith! and I know that this is where I'm supposed to be! Our mission president told us that we need to find our friends! So I'm going to keep working until I find all of my friends and share this message of happiness with them! The people here need the message, and I need to share it :) 

4) I feel like there is so much information I want to share with everyone, but I feel like this e-mail is already all over the place. If you have any questions in particular e-mail me :) Or write me! haha I'll send a bunch of photos today from the last few days in the MTC and my first days in Korea. I love all of you so much! 


Korea from a Giraffe's eye view: 
For my beautiful Sister Gelder: KOREA IS AWESOME! The people here need you so bad! Get better quick and come join us! I found a tall Elder that you would get along with perfectly! ( I'll attacth a photo). I hope you are doing well! I love you and think about you often! When you come to Korea, bring warm tights and practice your chopstick skills! I hope you are keeping up on your Korea! We have this intense pass-off program we have to work on for the language before you can be a senior companion so make sure you keep studying! I love you!!!!! <3 Sister Sulz 
                         MTC Teachers Sister Wadsworth and Brother Pendly
                                 Mission President's Wife Sister Perriton
      Hanging out in MTC on last day before Korea.
             Having fun outside Provo Temple on the day before Korea.
                                      I am guessing Tori got cookies for some reason?
                                  Tori and companion.
                                    In her apartment with cookies.
                                           More cookies.
                   Tori, her first companion, and her first companion's first companion.
           
           Waiting with luggage.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Forgot something!

I forgot to mention that this week was AMERICAN THANKSGIVING!! WE had  the entire day off of missionary work, and did a GIANT service project! So much fun! Then they fed us a ton of food! biggest news..... ELDER HOLLAND came and spoke to us! Its was AMAZING! He spoke on love, and how everything  really is based on that fact. && he said hes going to adpopt me! :P Haha I'll write all the details in a letter home today. Either way, it was amazing! He's amazing, he really is an apostle of the lord!

I am so blessed to beable to hear from so many general authorities its AWESOME!!!
Also, What happend to Sarahs back? Is she okay???
Leasa! Are you okay??
&& Sabrina! I havent heard anything from you about getting engagged!!!!

MEGAHN! - I'm still waiting for a letter!
Love you all!

November 27, 2012

I can't believe it's my LAST P-DAY at the MTC! That seems insane. It went by way too fast thats forsure!
I've had a really good experience here, it's been really hard! But I've learn't a lot. There is so much more work I need to do in order to be ready for Korea on Monday, but I have Faith that as I take this leap of Faith Heavenly Father will help me each day. My teacher Brother Pendly pulled me aside yesterday for my last interview and asked me if I feel like I've accomplished my Goals I set for myself for the MTC, and what my goals are for the field. I'm not going to lie I was having a really hard day with the language and feeling inadequate so I honestly wasn't able to say that much to him. It must have seemed like I had no goals or made no progressing in the MTC so far, but last night I was able to write out my goals and accomplishments since being at the MTC, and what I want to accomplish on my mission in Korea.
The Language is my biggest barrier thats for sure, it's challenging to set goals that don't relove around the fact that I still struggle with the language, but I've been able to start to understand what God needs me for. I have no doubt at all that Heavenly Father is here with me every single day. I feel God's love for me each day, and really that thing alone is what keeps me going. I know that there are people in Korea who need this message, people who God needs me to reach out to and serve, and I'm not going to let the language stop me from doing that.
( Of coarse, most of my goals have to do with learning the language). I will learn it tho! :) I just need to learn to be more patient with myself, diligent in my studies, full of love towards others, and 100% obedient. It really is a refinning process. I feel like that Mormon message - (the Gardener one) ... I feel like Heavenly Father is cutting me down so that he can make me what he needs me to be. I'm grateful for the opportunity to dedicate my life to him, and to this great work. I'm grateful for the things he is teaching me every day, but no matter how much you sugar coat it- being cut down is painful. It's challenging, but it's worth it. I am so glad that Heavenly Father loves me enough to show me my weaknesses, and to help me make them stronger.

Thank you for all the support from home! I love getting your letters and appreciated your testimonies. I'm sorry I haven't been able to respond to everyone, I will try to send something before Christmas to everyone!

Don't forget that Miracles are real! I see them every single day, and love hearing about yours!

With all my love,
Sister Sulz

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

November 20, 2012

Miracles! I FOUND MINI WHEAT'S IN THE CAFETERIA!!!!!!!
This is possibly the best thing ever! I have been eating cereal 1-2 meals a day! haha, after being at the MTC for 10 weeks I can officially say I am sick of the food. It's not that it's bad, just eating the same thing over and over again gets boring. ( Unless it's cereal :P)

I've have some amazing experiences this week, but to save time it suffices me to quote my beautiful teacher Sister Wasworth " It's just not fair how much we get blessed for the things we do!" - It's true, Heavenly Father blesses us way above and beyond any sacrifice we have to make. I see it everyday!

Speaking of sacrifices... so turns out giving up English was really hard haha. I did it successfully for about 3-4 days last week, But hey! Thats better than the week before. I decided to re-vamp my goals to make sure they are realistic and achievable otherwise I get too discouraged with my progress. I am still trying to give up English all the time, but if I need to speak for some reason and can't think of the word in Korea, I am allowed to say it. ( I think that will make communicating alot easier!)

 
I don't know if it's new at home as much as it is in the MTC, but just incase you haven't heard, CHINA IS OPENING!!!!! There have been alot of mission calls that say they will be serving in Taiwan learning Chinese, and then in a few months will be transferring to China. Another Elder in my zone found out that his friend's mission call did have a mission addressed to it. only a phone number. So she called the number, and President Monson answered, and told her that she is going to be serving in China!!!!! How sweet is that?!!!!! Miracles are happening, things are moving, THIS IS SO AWESOME! ( I found out a few weeks ago, but I wasn't sure if it was supposed to be public news, but everyday we are hearing more and more mission calls to China, so I figure its safe to say that its happening!)

 
Other news, my back has been hurting quite a bit lately so last week I started going to a Chiropractor. It's been feeling alot better since then. I only have 2 weeks left in the MTC!!!! IT seems unreal that I am leaving so soon, ( Especially because I still cannot speak the language!) But I am so excited to get out there and start talking to people. When ever we get to leave the MTC for my appointments, we always get to talk to so many people and I just love it!

 
In the spirit of American Thanksgiving this week I started a gratitude journal! I made it a goal to write 2-3 things I am grateful for each morning and night before I say my prayers. It's been helping alot with my attitude towards this experience, and helps me stay positive and happy on the rough days. The MTC completely shuts down for Thanksgiving! We get to hear from an apostle and do this gigantic service project! Plus a huge Thanksgiving dinner! Should be good :)

 
There is no place in the world I would rather be! Everyday I am learning so much, and my Faith in my Savior grows more and more each day. I've only been gone for 2 months officially, but I've already notices huge changes in myself. I hope that as I learn and strive to be an instrument in Gods hands I will beable to help him reach out to people that are in need of his love. I've already been able to see the miracles that come from missionary service just within the MTC.

 
My teacher Brother Pendly told me another analogy yesterday. He said that we are like a hammer. and God is using us inorder to build his Kingdom. We must never forget whos hands we are in, when things get difficult. Being a hammer sometimes its hard to see the whole picture, because you are constantly pounding nails into a board. It's not always comfortable, and ever hurts quite a bit. But we were built to accomplish a certian task, and the way we were designed allows us to withstand the heavy blows, and beable to create magnificent things. I know that God is using me to accomplish his work, and I trust he knows what he's doing better than I do :)

 
I love you all so much!
<3 Sister Sulz  
 

 

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

November 13, 2012

BABY JACKSON IS PRECIOUS!!!!!!!
I was so thrilled this week to hear about babay Jackson coming into the world!!!! :) He is beautiful! and BLONDE???? (Jenny he's the baby in my dream!!)
I hope everyone is doing well, thank you for all the wonderful letters this week I sure needed them! :)

 
Okay before I tell you about all the wonderful life lessons I learn't this week I wanted to CHALLENGE YOU to participating in a little comitment of mine :) ( As most people know missionaries LOVE giving out commitments) So! I wanted to extend one of my own to EVERYONE who reads this blog. I ask that you please take it seriously, and take your time to think about what you write before you respond. I promise that by taking the time to do this you will find more joy and happiness in your life. That whatever you are struggling with will be made easier as you strive to seek out Christ in your life.

Okay! My challenge to you is to for this next week
1)At the Begining of every day say a prayer of gratitude express to Heavenly Father all of the blessings you have been given and strive to recognize even little things that you've been blessed with.

2) THEN ( this is the big challenge so pay attention) I wan't you to pray for the opportiunity to witness a miracle during your day. Now, it takes a little more than that, because I want your to anxiously seek out ways that you can be a miracle in someone elses life as well. ( SO you might not know first hand what the miracle was, but even smiling at a stranger on the way to work could be a miracle in someone elses life that day). I promise  you that as you pray for the opportunities to see miracles and blessings in your life, Heavenly Father will show them to you. I'm concerned that too often we don't see the small simple miracles that happen in our everyday lives that build our strength and increase our Faith.  

3) Report Back! In your prayers that evening look back on your day and think about the miracles you've seen, or how you have been a miracle in someone elses life that day. Then WRITE IT DOWN!! I want to hear about your experiences at the end of the week so please START TODAY and do this for 1 week. Every night write down your experiences, and then at the end of the week either Dear Elder them to me, or snail mail them. ( What ever works) I promise you that by participating in this activity you will feel Gods love and spirit more abundantly in your life, you will be happier, and anything that has become a burdwn which seems too difficult to bear will become lighter.

 
 
WHAT A CRAZY WEEK! Haha ( did I ever mention how much I love the MTC?)
I really do learn so many amazing lessons here that I wish I would have really understood growing up. This week changed my life. It finally clicked! I feel like my whole outlook on life has been completly backwards and I am excited to move forward with determination and hard work to ackomplish all the things Heavenly Father needs me to do.

Throught my life I've always been satisfied with adequate performance. If something was too hard, I would try it another way. Or if I didn't like to do something, I would just do something else that I liked to do. I've been constantly allowing myself to justtify everything I do hoping that someday miraciously I will wake up and be this Great Missionary, or Outstanding Pianist, or Amazing Mother, or Martathon running Grandmother. ( You know what I mean?). Anyways, I re-evaluated the way I go about doing things and realized that I am a HUGE procrastinator. How often do I say " Oh it can wait till tomorrow", or " Next week forsure I'll commit to doing that every single day". I look at who I want to be at the end of my life ( or my mission) and think " Oh yeah, someday I'll be that great thing" - "At the end of my mission I will be this wonderful spiritual giant who is perfect at speaking Korean" or " Next year I'll be in better shape" or " I'll make my bed after I get ready, or clean my room later today". ( do you kind of understand what I'm trying to get at?)

 
But It's RIGHT NOW. RIGHT THIS SECOND that wil change your life. If we wait to act upon or decisions to change, or to do something IT WON'T HAPPEN!!! Making the commitment to change and do something in that VERY second is what will make the difference. That is what will change who I am on my mission. Saturday Nov 10th at 4:45pm is when the switch flicked in my head and I finally got it. I realized that right then and there at that every second I had to make the descion tobecome a real missionary. To change. To do WHATEVER it took at that every second to be the missionary I want to be at the end of the mission -Right now.Today.

It's no longer about me, or how many excuses I can make up for not being adeuate enough, or smart enough or good enough. It's about making the sacrifices I need to inorder to make this mission about HIM.  My mission isn't about me, and nether is my life's mission. When we finally can take that big step backwards and look at the big picture you'll see that this trivial day to day things in the long run will not matter. That this life really is all about finding happiness, finding joy and peace, understanding your purpose and potenital, and then helpping others find that aswell.

 
As I've been struggling with the language and my abilities to speak, my teacher sat me down on Saturday and said to me;  You haven't been called to learnt he Korean Language, you've been called to MASTER the Korean Language- SO STEP UP TO THE CALL. God wouldn't have called you to do this unless he knew you could do it! If learning the Language means you have to make some sacrifices THEN MAKE SACRIFICES! Do what ever it takes because if you let the language get in between you and your purpose- your goal of helping the Korean people find that Happiness and Joy that you have found through living the gosple then you are not fulfilling your purpose!!!! Make the decision right now to do whatever it takes to reach that goal- to filfill your purpose. If a Mountian is holding you back from reaching it, then by all means start this second to CLIMB THAT MOUNTIAN. Stop being okay with mediocor efforts and start sacrificing. Missionary work is about working hard and I've been callled to do things that are hard- But Heavenly Father has proved himself time and time again, that as we put of faith and trust in him, we can ackomplish hard things. SO set goal! and work through the hard day, and sacrifice whatever it make be to reach that Goal!   

DO THAT! RIGHT NOW! Whatever the change you know you need to make- whateve the sacrifice is- Do it. Right here right this second. I don't care how many excused you can make - I could give you thousands of reasons why I can't learn Korean. BUT I've been doing it wrong my whole life. It's time to take action, to so whatever it takes to become the person we need to be. If you are struggling in  your relationships, or your job, or with anything- Especially is your relationship with God is lacking, or non- existant. I know that as you start right now to climb your mountian you will be blessed in more ways that you could possible imagine. Life is hard, we have to work for the things we want most. We have to become the person we want to be at the end of our lives to day- and make the changes now to becoming that person.

 
This week I am giving up my English. My sacrifice starts right now, and I will continue to make whatever sacrifices it takes to master this language. No more messing around, God called me to Open my mouth and thats what I'm going to do. ( only this week you will only hear Korean coming out! )

 
 I love all of you so much! I look forward to hearing about your Miracles
<3 Sister Sulz
 
 
 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

November 6, 2012

Happy P-Day! :)
Come to the Edge he said, "No we'll fall!"
Come to the Edge he said, " No we'll fall!"
Come to the Edge he said! ...So we went to the edge.
And he pushed us.
And we flew.
- Elder Holland.

I was thinking about this simple poem today, and realized how true it applies into our lives. Too often we let our fears and doubts hold us back from doing things that we can do because of the fear of failure. As I read in Ether 12 this week in verse 12 it talks about how God can ONLY perform miracles if we have faith first. It made me realize that even though God has the ability to do anything, it is based on our agency that he can work in our lives to perform miracles. The more doubt we have and walls we put up to keep God out, the better it will work. If you are looking for God's hand in our life you need to do something, you need to walk to the edge! you need to open that door he's knocking at, you need to get down on your knees and pour out your heart and soul to him, you need to open up the scriptures ( especially the Book of Mormon) and feast upon the words of Christ. I know that as I have faith and take that first step to have faith - I open doors for God to bless me, and I really have seen miracles everyday.

This week was an interesting week. My language seems to be suffering a bit, but I am getting stronger and stronger everyday. I'm able to work through the rough days and stay strong and immovable in my efforts and keep my positive attitude. On Sunday we had something really crazy happen! our branch president received a phone call from our mission president saying that we were going to have a "special  guest" come for our fast and testimony meeting. - We weren't told who it was, just that we needed to be on time, and stand when his guest walked in the door. When the time came, I was suprised to see Elder Evans from the first quorm of the 70! I don't know why he decided to come, the mission president made it every clear that this NEVER happens. General Authorities don't just show up for an hour sacrament meeting, bear their testimony and then leave. But It was incredible. He said some amazing things, and at the end of his testimony he said something that I will never forget. He bore his testimony of his special witness of the Savior, and blessed each of the missionaries in my Zone to be able to have the same witness of the divinity of the Father and the Son as strong and as sure as the general authorities. He said until we have the faith to have that witness for ourselves, that we should remember that that day he stood before us and bore a bold witness as someone who knows. The spirit was so strong, It was an incredible experience.

This week I was called to be the Coordinating sister for my Zone, which means I'm the female version of a zone leader. I'm super excited to be able to serve the sisters, and I hope that I will be able to do all that I can to reach out to each one of them in love, and support them as we try to learn this language. Something that really hit me yesterday in my leadership training was the reason we come to the MTC. They said that most people think you come to the MTC to learn the Gospel, or how to teach, or how to speak a language. But the real reason we come to the MTC is to become converted to Christ- if the missionaries who come to the MTC learn who their Savior is and their heart is changed, and they become converted unto Christ- You won't have to teach the missionary how to convert others, they will beable to do it by their selves because the testimony of the reality of God the Father and Jesus Christ will be so sure for them that they will not be able to do anything but bear testimony from the bottom of their hearts.

Elder Holland said something that I really hit me and made me appreciate all the people in my life who have helped to teach me, to be my role models and friends. I know that I am here in the MTC because of people like you. Somebody like you taught somebody like me. I know that I am not yet who I am going to be at the end of this life, or where I will end up in 30 years from now- but everything that I am is a result of the people who taught it to be. I just wanted to take this opportunity to that every person who has had any role in my life, and let you know that I really am who I am today because of your influence in my life. I would not be the same person, if I hadn't met every single person I have. I'm so grateful for family and friends who have taught me how to love and to be a friend to everyone. I am especially grateful that my parents raised me in an enviorment where I was able to feel the spirit and come to understand who God is, and the plan he has for me.
Thank you for loving me, even on days where I wasn't teach able. That is the most beneficial thing that you could have done for me, or that you can do for anyone who is struggling. Love them first. It makes all the difference.

With all my love,
Sister Sulz,

p.s- sorry there are no pictures today, I forgot my SD card thingy in my room! I'll post some next week for sure.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

October 30, 2012

 
 
I have probably the funniest roommates ever! I absolutely love them. ( remind me to tell you some crazy stories about them when I got home, I don't know if they would want them to be up on my blog! :P ) This week was weird! It seems like I was e-mailing just yesterday, but looking back on the week I feel like so much has happened~!

 
SO! It snowed this week! haha it was the pretty kind that melts within a few hours :) A few of my elders in my district were SO excited haha, they had never seen snow falling before. I though that was pretty funny. So we went out side and took pictures!

Every Tuesday it seems we get to hear from someone who spoke in conference! This week was the Echo-Hawks! they are so sweet, after they spoke I was able to go up and meet them, ( his wife especially was AMAZING!) she talked to me for probably 10-15 minutes, and then gave me a news paper clipping from desseret news saying that the amount of missionary applications have jumped 471%!!!!!!!! Thats Awesome! I also ran into the Drews cousin here at the MTC and she told me that Holly was planning on serving a mission!:) I'm super excited for all the future missionaries! What a fun time to be serving.

 
Every saturday we teach in the TRC, where real native Koreans come and we get to teach them in Korean. This week was so much fun! Sister Wood made me bear my testimony in the middle of the lesson with no notice!!! But I did, and the spirit was so strong!! some of my grammar was a little bit off, but it was amazing to see how such a simple testimony in Korean can invite the spirit.

 
I don't have much time, so I'll share a story real qucik! ( theres always so much I want to say but not enough time on these computers!!)
On Wednesday one of my teachers Sister Wasworth shared a personal experience that really hit home for me.

She said that through her whole mission she always felt inadequate ( she served in the Seoul mission too) She felt like  she didn't knwo the language as much as she would like to, and that often many of the missionaries from america faced many trials that continually humbled them and tested their faith.

she shared with us a scripture that her mission president shared about the missionaries in Korea and testified of how much  the Lord loves them. ( D&C 19-23.. but especially 23)
" That the fulness of my gospel might be proclaimed by the weak and the simple unto the ends of the world, and before kings and rulers" .

It was a reminder to me that this is the way the Lord wants his gospel to be taught. - By the  weak and simple. If the Lord wanted it to be done by the mighty, powerful, boastful people who have great intellect and strength he would have called them.

But he called me, because he wants this work to be done by me and evern though I am weak and simple, that is exactly what he needs.
- It's amazing that the more inadequate I feel I am in the language or being a missionary- the more Adequate I become.

I really have been humbled over and over again morning and night. But everytime I feel weak or simple, he makes me feel strong and builds me up to press forward valiently with and ever stronger desire to acomplish what he has sent me here to do. The power and beauty of being weak and simple is that he can use weak and simple missionaries in ways that just doesn't work with pride. I see it everyday- that as I become prideful with my abilities and lose focus of my purpose Hevenly Father can no longer use me. But as I humble myself, and aline my will with his - he is able to make me much more than I am.

I may be weak and simple, but the Heavenly Father I am stronger than I could ever imagine being!
 
My time is up, but I just wanted to quickly thank everyone for all the love am support of my being on a mission.

It's amazing how much you can learn about yourself, and about life in such a short period of time when you pay attenton to the spirit.
I would encourage anyone who reads this to allow the spirit into your life more fully, to strive to build a stronger relationship with God, and to continually make the changes in your life to invite happiness and light! Life if hard. But it doesn't have to be that hard! There is so much joy that can enter your life once you allow Christ in to lift some of your burdens.

Thank you for the letters!!!
p.s- Side not to my family, since its going to cost alot to send things to Korea and I only have 5 weeks left in the states.. if anyone wants to send me some thick stockings:) or fun knee-high socks that would be pretty great! I under estimated how cold Korea winters will be in a skirt.

 
Thats all for now!
Love you all! :)
If there is anything I can do for any of you let me know! ( I sent home a bunch of lettes last week, I hope you got them! )
 


 Basking in the temporary snow.
 Tori's Roomates



Sister Sulz <3 ^-^

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

At long last.... PHOTOS!

Hey guys, Tori just sent me a MILLION photos today from her time in the MTC so far. Some of them you may recognize from her past blog posts. For example, she talks about the day her district wore all blue, and now we have the picture of that.

And here are the photos!

 This first photo is Tori's favorite teacher in the MTC. Brother Prendly. He sure looks friendly.
 Tori and some "Canadian Friends". I don't really know what that means, except they are Canadian.
 The district out for a walk around the temple.
 Tori and somebody. Maybe he looks familiar? I can't remember what her caption was of this. I'll check and fix this.
 Her companion's family sent them matching necklaces that say "I am a child of God" on them. Also, she cut her hair, although maybe it is hard to see in this picture.(also, note the messy bed)
 Tori and more Canadians.
 Bowing for her majesty.
 They love Korea already.
 The day the district wore blue.
 Mailing letters.
 Her and companion with their hair matching and cutsie.
 Studying Korean/ PMG all the live long day.
 The box of Sunshine her friends mailed her. So happy to get a package. (also, note the messy bed behind her. tsk tsk)
 Tori ran into Elda. Dupont, and some other dude that I don't know. Also, don't be freaked out that her hand looks chopped off. I have confirmation that it is actually fine, and just blurry.
 Studying Korean is so much fun.
 The Canadian ties were a big hit. When there is no hockey season, what do you do? Put on a maple leaf tie and try to appear cheerful. Although, I am pretty such they don't care much about hockey.
Tori and Elder Freeze. Anybody know him? I sure don't, but he likes to cruise around the bookstore from time to time.

October 23, 2012

Hello Family :)
Its official! We have moved up in the MTC life, and are now the " Older District". The older group of Korean Speakers left early yesterday morning and we are getting our new group on the 31st! Everything is good here, most days are hard- but all are fun :)
I was reading in 2 Nephi 24 yesteday where Nephi is discouraged because of his iniquities & because he is letting things get to him. However admists his trials all he says is, you know that- I trust the Lord. No matter what happends, and even though days are hard - I trust Him. That really hit me because being on a mission is hard. Learning Korean is hard. learning to work with a companion is hard. But in the end the only thing that matters is that I trust my Heavenly Father and I know that with him I can do anything. I know that my call to Korea was directly from him, and I may not know why exactly or who it is that I need to help- I trust that he does. I trust that he knows I will struggle with the language- but he has a purpose behind it. I trust that there is something I need to learn from every experience I have. And that in its self makes me not worry about anything. I trust Him- so I'm going to work as hard and as diligently as I can each day, love everyone I meet and strive to do what he would have me do, because thats what he needs me to do. I trust him to help me, and he trusts me to work!!
 
This week was a rollercoaster!! I was able to hear from Elder Bowman, and Sister Ann Dibb ( President Monsons Daughter!.. I even gave her a hug)
Here are some quotes I wrote down from Elder Bowmans Fireside:
- When you think the mission is going to be hard- when its hard- it wont seem as hard :P
- Burn yourself out on the mission- it's not a marathon- it's a sprint
- Recieveing the spirit is not a one time event- it's a life long process
- If your Almost Obiedient you Almost get he blessings
- The Book Of Mormon doesn't need us. We just need to get it into the hands of the people and the Lord will do the rest.
 
Sister Ann Dibbs was Amazing! It amazes me how the General Authorites really are just everyday people - It makes me appreciate my relationship wih my Heavenly Father that much more. I realized how real he is in my life! It's hard to explain the closeness I feel to him being on a mission. He really is with me, I can feel him and can see his hand in my life eachday. He speaks to me and I can sence him listening to each prayer I say.
Quick Experience from this week :
On Wednesday my companion and I were teaching our investigator, and I felt like this lesson was going to be Awesome! We had alot of time to prepare our Korean outline and I felt pretty good about it. Well as I've learn't, things hardly ever go as planned.. The lesson completely fell apart, and I left the lesson feeling discouraged and self critial. I felt like crying - but I didn't, in stead that night I knelt by my bed and prayed with my whole heart that Heavenly Father would help me to speak the Korean Language. I know that he can do anything, and if I work as hard as I can- and have enough faith He will give me the gift of tounges. I felt the spirit around me - comforting me and telling me that he was aware of my struggles and would help me.
Friday was my next lesson with this particular investigator and my companion and I were going over our lesson in Korean earlier that morning. I couldn't seem to pronouce the words correctly or remember what Grammar forms to use - but I diligently kept practicing and studying. When the time came to teach I still didn't feel prepared, I hadn't been able to get through a topic without messing up. But before we went into the lesson I prayer that the spirit would guide me to know the words that I needed to say. In the Lesson my companion was amazed that by some miracle I was able to say practically everything perfectly! I was overcome with a Love and appreciation for God's hand in my life. The gift of tounges is real- and in that lesson I saw God working through me to give me the ability to speak clearly. I obviously have SO much work to do, and I'm still making thousands and thousands of mistakes every day- but I know that as I am diligent and work hard - The Lord will help me. It's such a good feeling to be reasured of God's love and awareness of me.
 
Korean is hard - I struggle with it everyday. It's hard- but its through those hard days that make me stronger. Being on a mission is like a rollercoaster- really! Some days are harder than you ever imagined, but others are the happiest days of my life. Heavenly Father really knows how best to teach me, and by humbling myrself and working through the tough times - he blesses me more than I ever could imagine! I am filled with so much love and apprecition for my Heavenly Father, and how much he teaches me every day. I know that he loves me- I feel it more evidently here than I ever have before. I know that he's there at the door knocking- and we only need to turn the handle and let him in. He will be there in the though times to give you small miracle and tendermercies to help  you pick up and keep going.
I'm so greatful to be here on a mission, there really is no place I'd rather be. I love being a missionary, I love learning and growing and being stretched in ways I have never been. But I trust in God. I know there is a purpose for my experiences. And I  know that what I am learning now is preparing me for something else.
Life is good :) There is so much Joy to be felt if we only are diligent enough to keep pushing through the hard days, let God take over your life and you will see miracles.
 
I love all of you and appreciate all the love and support I've recieved on my mission so far. I am greatful for your prayers and love and letters ^_^ .
I'm trying to attatch pictures- but I don't seem to know how to do it... I'm trying tho! haha You will have some soon I promise!
With all my Love,
Sister Sulz
<3

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

October 16, 2012

What a week!
There has been so much going on this week its been incredible!
1) Elder Bednar came and spoke to us on Tuesday!
2) Sister Burton came too! ( General Relief Society President )

3) We got more details for whats going to happen with the new announcement of missionaries! :)
 
Now before I get started, I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm sorry I haven't been sending indiviual e-mails, and I realize it may feel like I'm forgetting about you- BUT I'm NOT! I want to beable to write everyone, however I only have 30 min to e-mail and often it takes me longer than that just to check my e-mails. So by doing a "Blog" entry, this is my way to make sure everyone can hear from me. I also e-mailed everyone my e-mail address before I left on my mission and the only people who have e-mailed me are mom, leasa, rachael and dad. I don't have anyone elses e-mail addresses ( or addresses). If you want a letter PLEASE send me a quick dear elder with your address in it. That way I know how to get ahold of you! Otherwise keep checking in on my blog.

 
SO This week was pretty great ( to say the least). When I say I'm having a good time at the MTC it doesn't really justify how amazing it is to be here. Everyday I am edified, uplifted, taught, humbled, and motivated to work harder. There are so many things I need to work on! But being here at the MTC is like taking every spiritual expereince I've every had and experienced or that day you learn't an important gospel truth and it sunk deep into your heart, an became a part of who you are. Its like taking all those moments and putting them back to back & experiencing them ( but different and new principles) all day everyday! I'm learning and growing alot here. They say that the MTC is what will give you the strength to get you through the hard days on your mission, and they Mission your MTC for life! That during those hard days after my mission, as I look back and re-experience spiritual highs from my mission I wil beable to continue to push through challenges and relight my enthusiasm for serving others and living the gospel.

 
Okay! Now for the fun stuff! ELDER BEDNAR came and spoke to us on Tuesday!!! It was really good! He focused on Conferene, and how we can adapt better study habits. It was more of a workshop, but I felt like needed to hear what he had to say. He encouraged us all to study the words from conference, because if we don't and someone askes us about what our modernday prophets have said and we don't know the answer, it's as if we don't believe. So we have to work at knowing what is being taught to us, and study it out :)

He also talked about how God will further his work when he wants to. And he wants to now. ( concerning the change for ages of missionaies)
 
SISTER BURTON! WAS FANTASTIC!!!
I Love seeing general authorities as real people, they are so amazing and real. haha. She spoke to us on sunday for relief soceity and it was amazing! I don't have my notes with me but take my word for it, she is an amazing woman! I am so grateful shes been called to serve all of us! ( She also served in Korea! ^_^)

 
FINALLY!!!
Okay so, I've been wondering whats going to happen with this huge change of all these new missionaries coming in! Where are they going to go? Is there room for them at the MTC??

We were told that all mission training times will be cut down by 1/3! So Missionaries going english speaking will go from 3 weeks in the MTC to 2 weeks. 9 weekers will go to 6 weeks ( so anyone speaking spanish or french etc) and the 12 weekers ( me :P ) will be cut down to 9 weeks. This change won't effect me, BUT he wanted to let us know that we were called at this time because we will be the ones training all the new missionaries. If you think about how many girls are putting in their papers- in 3-4 months there could possibly 2x the amount if girls. That means in missions where there are 12 sisters, there will now be 24 more that need to be trained. Most likely alot of us will be training directly following our first 12 weeks in the field! THAT IS HUGE!!!!! Especially for Koreans! Normally you don't start training until you have learnt the language enough to be the senior companion and actually speak to people. SO this means I have to step it up! I need to pray for the gift of tounges and work harder at the language! I know that if Heavenly Father needs me to learn faster I can as long as I give everything I have to him.

Its going to be hard with this change! but I know as I spend all my free time ( which isnt much) studying the language I will beable to speak to ther people in Korea.
 
As usual I'm out of time before I could finish everything I wanted to say! once I'm in the field I PROMISE everyone will get more personal letters and information about what I am doing. If you want specific questions answered please dear elder me ( WITH YOUR RETURN ADDRESS) and I will write you a hand written letter back.

 
Love all of  you so much! Thank you for you support and love!
p,s- JENN YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!! Thank you so much for the package! <3
With all my love,
Sister Sulz

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

!!*! OH MY GOODNESS!!!*!!*
AHHHHHHHHHHH !!! :) :) :) :) <3<3<3<3 (: (: (:
To put into words the amount of joy which filled my soul the moment President Monson announced that girls everywhere can serve missions at the age of 19! I was overcome with a love and fire to personally invite every girl everywhere to drop what you are doing and get your butt on a mission!

As the announcement was made ( being in a HUGE auditorium packed with Missionaries) an enormous out break of Joy was audibly heard and piercingly felt in each missionaries heart, to such an great amount that brought myself and all the sisters serving with me to tears. In that moment I felt how our spirits must have felt in the pre-existance when God announced the plan for us to come to earth and we "sang together and shouted for Joy!" :) ( Job 38-7)
My heart shouts for Joy in love for my Heavenly Father and the miracle which took place in this conference! To think of how much this is going to change the world is a great reason to rejoice!

I know that as our Young women fill the earth, as missionaries called by our Heavenly Father they will not only out number the Elders- We will make is possible for places to open up to missionaries that currently cannot because of the lack of missionary numbers. I believe with all my heart that this is an answer to my prayers. I know that as we strengthen our " Troops" and double our sizes as missionaries places like China will soon be opened!
Someone once told me that its not China that isn't ready for us, its that we aren't ready for China. It is my testimony that as our Young Women and Men are worthy and go out and serve out God; This will be the start of one of the most influential periods of time. Things are rolling, the Gospel is coming forth and the truth of God is going out rapidly to all the world.

I would dare challenge every person I know to come until Christ and become worthy to serve God. To serve those around you, and if applicable to start your papers to serve a mission TODAY. Don't look back on your life and regret that you didn't do everything possible to help others come into Christ. .... I know that a mission is the best thing for any young women or young man. I have only been a missionary for 4 weeks, but is has been the best weeks of my life. There is nothing that compares to being a full time missionary!

I am so grateful that I am able to be a part of this great and marvelous movement. I am filled with an overwhelming amount of peace and appreciation for Heavenly Father. I am so glad he waited until I was in the MTC to make this announcement, because I know I would have dropped everything at 19 and served! BUT with the Lord I know there are no coincidences. I know that I am supposed to be here right now~! If I would have come 2 years earlier I would not have met the people I am going to meet, or built the relationships I have these past 2 years. There is no way I could be who I am today without all those people who have influenced my life over the last little while in my life. I was meant to be serving at this time, in this mission, for these people.

That being said, NOW is your time!:) For whatever reason I needed to wait, BUT you are being called now to serve with me! Please listen to your heart, and if there is any desire to serve please Follow it!! And Don't look back! I know that President Monson was directed to make this announcement for a marvelous cause, and we are a part of that! STEP UP and stand tall as a Representative of Jesus Christ in these Latter Days!

( side note: And Elder in my Zone just said: " ... The saying won't be " Will you wait for me? " any more.... it will be " Don't wait for me!.... Serve with me!" Haha :P)

I testify that Jesus is the Christ! That this is the truth in its fulness, and our way back to him is through his Gospel.
I sincerly plead with everyone I know to come until Christ, to find that peace and rest you seek for. make those changes you know you need to make and find the Joy and Happiness that comes through the atonment . This seriously is the best day of my life! I would stay a missionary forever if Heavenly Father needed me to. I desire every person I know to experience the same joy I feel now....

Especially my family and close friends who have fallen away from the Church. I wish to express how my heart aches when on days like today I am filled with so much love and enthusiasm for God and his plan, and to not have the people I love most have their hearts swell within them as mine does now. I only want you to feel Gods love and the happiness it has brought into my life. I know you can feel it in your life too. Please give him a shot, open up your hearts to the possibilities of being taught. I promise you the spirit will touch your hearts! I know as you take those simple steps to come unto Christ he will guide you and comfort you.

Everything I have experienced every trial I've gone through has strengthened my love and desire to serve. I've noticed that too often I have stood by on the sidelines watching the people I love make choices and decisions that have hurt them spiritually. I didn't ever say anything because I wanted to love them for who they are, rather than what they do. I love all of you more than I could physially express with words. But I've learnt that part of my needs to step out there and stand strong in y beliefs. I don't want to regret not sharing my testimony with you. I am here now, making a promise and commitment that for as long as I live I will testify of the impact Christ and his Gospel has make on my life for good.

I am openly Boldly standing as a witness that God is real, that he is our Heavenly Father and that through Jesus Christ we really can over come ANYTHING and become free from sin, sadness, heavey burdens, heartaches, and our joys can be made more real.
My teacher Brother Pendly noticed how whenever there is a spirital moment in class I close my mouth and just write down the thoughts and impressions I recive. Yesterday he bore testimony of the importance of opening your mouth and sharing those thoughts and feelings. He said that " What your thinking might be the answer to someone elses prayers". This really hit me because so often I learn truths and recieve understanding but I keep it to myself. I've done this my whole life and I just wonder how many times I missed out on being an answer to someones prayer because I chose not to open my mouth.

Pendly was talking about opening my mouth in a classroom setting, but it stuck a cord deeper in me. I realized that the promises I Was given are conditional on me opening my mouth and sharing those experiences with others. To allow the spirit to enlighten understanding, build faith and strengthen your testimonies. God has blessed me with an ability to feel the spirit and understand. But it will all go to waste it I cannot share it with others. - To help build them up through my experiences.

Please give him a chance. I know he will not let you down. I know this because believe it or not I've had hard days. I've struggled. I've felt alone, and even here in the MTC I've had my rough days with learning the language. But HE has NEVER left me alone. He is my rock, My redeemer, and I know that if you let him into your life he can be yours too.

I hope this letter isnt taken the wrong way, I only wish to invite the spirit to touch your hearts. To have the desire to re kindle that relationship with God, starting simple with Prayer. He want to help you, he loves you. Please reach out to him. The gospel is going forth and nothing is going to stop it! As we are strictly obedient miracles happen, and this is a HUGE miracle.
I can see how prepared we are to serve. Our families, institutes, and stakes are preparing worthy youth to serve as a part of the Army of Helaman- To bring the world his truth! And its not going to stop until the work is finished!

I love all of you so much, and am so grateful for the opportunity and privilage of being able to serve a mission. I have seen so many miracles in such a short time. I know God lives.

With all my love,
Sister Sulz

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

First week in the MTC

Good morning blog world! I am Rachael, Tori's sister. She has asked me to update her blog each week as she sends a weekly e-mail to the fam-jam and to all who would like to know how she is doing! This first post in the MTC was supposed to include a picture of her and her entire district but the photo didn't upload for some reason, so I am including a picture a nice woman who works at the MTC sent our family!

I will just be posting her e-mail each week with no forshadowing such as this, but just so you know, NOPE. Tori is not being a rebel and updating her blog herself. I am behind the scenes bringing her to you!

This is Sister Sulz, and Sister Wood on their FIRST day in the MTC!

Week #1 Email: Sent September 25, 2012.

Hello!!! :)
So I've officially been at the MTC for 1 WEEK!!!!
Where to start, I feel like so much has happened this past week not to mention SARAH HAD HER BABY and only Rachael told me about it! ( Family, you should probably e-mail me some time...)
So to start off the MTC isn't as bad as people have been telling me it is, if anything it is the exact opposite. I am having so much fun and love every minute of it!
My companion (Sister Wood) is amazing. Before coming out I was worried about what my companion was going to be like, but Sister Wood is WAY better than anything I had wished for. She is so smart and we have so much fun together! My district is so much fun, they are a bunch of super energetic Elders who keep me smiling.
The KOREAN language is crazy!!!!! haha I love learning and trying to speak a language that isn't normal to my own. I'm not going to lie I've have a few really tough days so far in language class, but I know that Heavenly Father called me to this mission for a reason, and if he wants me here, I know he will help me to learn the language. :)
( My companion is so smart and picks up everything super fast so I use her as my personal tutor)!!!!
On Sunday this week my companion and I were asked to sing in church, we sang " Beautiful Savior" It went really well!
Our whole scarament meeting is in Korean, so all the prayers, and talks, and hymns are in Korean... SO I will have to learn how to read faster. haha So far we've learn't the alpahbet, how to in truduce ourselves, say prayers, bear testimony and to do some basic gramar. Its crazy! haha but I really do love every minute of being a missionary.
I already am sad thinking about the fact that 1 week of my mission has already past, and I will never beable to get it back. It really is so important not to waste any time and to give all I have to the Lord at all times.
My branch president said that as soon as I waked in to the MTC " Viktoria" Died, and Sister Sulz was born, I now am I new person with a calling to serve God and serve the people of Korea! And I'm so excited to get started.
I could talk forever but I only have 30 minutes to e-mail!
I love you all and am so grateful for your love and support!
Thank  you for all the Dear Elders! They are the best!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Farewell Talk

For all those who weren't able to make it, here are notes with a few added stories and things that I remember saying during the talk. ( Obviously it didnt go EXACTLY like this, but its a pretty good idea of what the overall talk was about, minus me telling the stories and what not)
Enjoy!
 
 
Introduction:
When I was 7 years old, I remember sitting in sharing time in primary with the other boys and girls my age singing the song We’ll bring the world his truth”. And I remember as a 7 year old feeling the spirit touch my heart as I sang the words;
We are as the army of Helaman.
We have been taught in our youth.
And we will be the Lord’s missionaries
To bring the world his truth.
As a little girl I remember looking around at the other kids in my class and thinking. “I want to be part of the army of helaman. I want be a stripling warrior!” I looked up to those soldiers who were valiant and true at all time. Who know what they stood for and who were not ashamed of it and wanted to be just like them. I wanted to have the faith and love for the Lord that they did. And I was going to do my part in sharing the truth with all the world, and no one was going to stop me.
(Bear quick testimony of the importance of missionary work in my life).

Over the years I have had an ever growing desire to serve the Lord, and as I was taught in my youth that the best way to prepare to serve a mission was through application. Through study and prayer, learning how to recognize the spirit in my life, striving each day to be more like Christ and understanding his gospel more fully and applying the atonement daily to change me into a creature more like him. Once I understood who I was, where I was going and what my purpose in life was nothing was going to stop me from sharing the gospel, until after high school I moved to China for a semester aboard teaching English.  

China Story
(See post “One of the many reasons I decided to serve” August 11th 2012)


The simple desire to know God changes our lives. When we have the desire as that girl on the train did, to truly know God, and strive to be like him everything in life seems to fall into place. It is that desire which lights a flame in our hearts, and gives us the ambition to learn of him and his plan.I know that one day that girl and many others like her will have to opportunity to hear the message of the restored gospel; I look forward to that day with great excitement and anticipation to see the words of Joseph smith come to pass:
“No unhallowed hand can stop the work from progressing; persecutions may rage, mobs may combine, armies may assemble, calumny may defame, but the truth of God will go forth boldly, nobly, and independent, till it has penetrated every continent, visited every clime, swept every country, and sounded in every ear, till the purposes of God shall be accomplished, and the Great Jehovah shall say the work is done.”
The mission Motto for the Japan mission in 1991-1994 states:

Obedience is the Price
Faith is the power
Love is the motivator
The spirit is the Key
And Christ is the reason

This outlines the way that we can all become something greater than we are, and gives us to tools to get there. It is through these principles that I will be able to become a better missionary, how you will be able to become better spouses, parents, friends, and leaders.
Obedience is the Price.
John 1:5 – God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.
D&C 88:49 talked about how light cleaveth unto light. And darkness comprehended it not.  
49 The alight shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehendeth it not; nevertheless, the day shall come when you shall bcomprehend even God, being quickened in him and by him.
To comprehend him, and to know him and recognize light we need to get rid of all the darkness in our lives.
That as we act and think like god we come to know him. 1 John 2: 3-5 says that by keeping his commandments we become like him. How do we come to know God? How to we recognize him and his light? We become like him. When we are making the choices that bring light into our lives we attract light, we become closer to our heavenly father by being like him.
Through Our OBIEDINCE we come closer to God, and have the ability to obtain whatever it is we seek.
Too often we think backwards, we think that by making mistakes will allow us to have more freedom, to do what we want.
I remember my young women’s leader telling me when I asked her about how much fun the other kids were having by not living the commandments and she reassured me that “ they weren’t REALLY having fun, it just looks like it” J What she really meant was that those things only bring instant gratification, they don’t bring lasting joy into their lives the way the gospel does.

Helaman 13: 29: Yea, how long will ye choose darkness rather than light?
13:38 “Ye have sought all the days of your life for that which ye could not obtain. Ye have sought for happiness in doing iniquity”

Of course you’re not going to find happiness committing sin, you can’t truly be happy if you are looking for light by doing things that bring darkness into your life.
How are you doing it? – You know what you want to be like to find happiness... So how are you doing it?  What is the quality of your obedience? How are you keeping the commandment?
Personal reflection/reality check.

Why do you go to church? How are you fulfilling your callings? What is the quality of you scripture study or personal prayers? How do you love others?
If obedience is the price, It is something that has to be paid, physically, mentally and spiritually. How do you pay the person who gave you everything? Who gave you the tools so that you have a way back to your heavenly father?
Mosiah 2:21-I say unto you that if ye should serve him who has created you from the beginning, and is preserving you from day to day, by lending you breath, that you may live and move and do according to your own will, and even supporting you from one moment to another- I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole soul yet ye would be unprofitable servants.

Obedience is the price. The only thing we have to give that he hasn’t already given us is our will. And yet that is the one thing he asks of us. To align our will with his and to lose our life in his work. Matt 16:25- For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.  
Obedience is the price, and your right, being obedient isn’t always the funnest thing in the moment, but by doing so the reward greatly outweighs the sacrifice.
He promises that you will be filled with Love as you keep the commandments. Mosiah 2:4 keep the commandments of God, that they might rejoice and be filled with elove towards God and all men.

 Faith is the Power

To start off I just wanted to talk a little bit about how faith and fear cannot be together. That in order to truly put all of our trust and faith in Jesus Christ we need to eliminate Fear.
To further illustrate this I’d like to tell a story about an experience I had a few weeks ago at the lake. It was my first time Sea-doing( I was pretty scared to get out there on the lake in the first place, but I had a life jacket on so I felt a little bit secure). Once I worked up enough courage and go out there, I would slowly go faster and faster, do a few turns here and there, you know eventually getting to the point where you’re like “yeah! I can do this; I’m not going to die!
Then, pulling in for the day (so I thought) my friend just looked at me, smiled and said “oh, you’re not finished yet! I want you to go out there again, go as fast as you can and then SLAM on the break, TURN the handle bars, and THROW yourself off into the water!”
You want me to do WHAT!!??! Are you insane? Nope. Impossible. I can’t do it, I’m way too scared. That’s crazy! I can’t do it and that’s that! (Listen with your spiritual ears)
His response was” Okay, then I’m going to do it for you.” I will drive, all you have to do is hold on. And when we go flying off into the water, I’m coming with you. I’ll do all the scary stuff; you just have to hold on to me as tight as you can. And guess what, that’s exactly what we did. He did all the hard/scary work, and I just held on for my dear life! After he throw us off for the first time, I popped out of the water and all of a sudden it was fun and exciting, I was filling with an energy and enthusiasm to do it again.

By letting fear take over I was halting my progressing. I was letting something I was scared of stop me from achieving something better.  When we put faith in the Lord Jesus Christ he takes the role of my friend, and says I’ll do it for you. He works through us and does the hard part, all we have to do is hold on to him with everything we have and don’t let go when you go flying into deep water.
In preparing for my mission fear has been something that I have become quite familiar with.
Getting my call I was overcome with fears and doubts regarding learning the language. I allowed Satan to take over my thoughts and corrupt the ability I had to put my faith in God to teach me the language. I find it interesting that Faith and Fear cannot exist together. Learning Korean is going to be hard, but I know and have faith that He will work with me, and through me to learn the language. He will give me the power because I have faith in him.


Alma 17:12 Talks about how the sons of Mosiahs hearts were filled with courage as they went to teach the people. They were filled with COURAGE, not Fear in order to be successful missionaries.  In the last days, men’s hearts will fail them for fear (Luke 21:26). Faith in Jesus Christ allows you to have access to that power- the ability to do anything. Faith is power that God gives us access to according to our obedience. It is powerful, it motivates, it moves mountains, and it allows us to see a vision beyond our sight.

I have faith because I don’t always know. But I trust. Faith is the power that God gives me to overcome fear, the promise that if I put my trust in him he will make my weaknesses strengths. In the Lord we can do all things. To have faith you have to act. It’s a powerful tool that motivates you to become something you don’t see in yourself. Faith is the power to do things and believe in things that don’t always make sense. It is a higher law.
See how it relates? We can do anything, as long as we are obedient first.
With enough faith I can do anything, and if I can you can!

Love is the motivator
“A man who is full of the love of god is not content with blessing his family only, but thinks about all of the people in the world, anxious to bless the whole human race.” Joseph Smith, History of the Church, Vol. 4, pg. 227.
When you ask people what is most important in their lives they usually say their family. We all love our families; I know a huge part of why I am serving a mission is because I love my family. Love is the reason behind why we should do anything in this life, why we are all here, and really why in life we do anything at all.
We need to remember that we are all here as a family, working towards a common goal in this gospel. Now I want you to think about why you do your calling? Are you doing it because you love the Lord? Because you love the people you serve?  
 When you concentrate on the things that you love, it changes the reasoning behind what you are doing. Instead of dreading going to work each day you look forward to the next day with energy and excitement because you love it. And that Love motivates you to keep going.
“Get to the point where your actions and goals are not motivated by fear or reward or duty but by a love for the Lord and for those they served. The highest motive for keeping the commandments is a love for God and for His children”

 I think of a story my institute teacher told me. As a little child he had this aunt who whenever he would come over to visit would take a special moment out of her day to sit him down, look him in the eye and ask him how he was, she would listen and give him heartfelt advice and counsel. This simple gesture of love, that she would pay close attention to him overwhelmed him and stuck with him through his life.
That’s how I think the savior loves. He stops. Listens, and cares about each one of us. That is the type of love I want to have for the people I’m serving. The type of love I need to have towards my investigators, the food and my companions. That is the love I want to have in my callings, family and work.  

“Love is itself a gift. It is difficult for us to love others if we are not loved. Sometimes we don't feel loved or at all lovable. At these times it may be difficult for us to feel motivated to exercise faith or to show love. But God loves us. He loves us more than we can comprehend at this time "We love him, because he first loved us" (1 John 4:19)When you understand that, it transforms you. We need to have faith that the Lord does indeed love us. As we exercise that faith through obedience, we begin to feel the Lord's love more powerfully in our lives. All of these principles are interconnected”

Spirit is the key  

2 Nephi 32:3 & 5 – “the words of Christ will tell you all the things what ye should do… And, the Holy Ghost will show unto you all things what ye should do”
Christ performed the atonement and provided a way back, and the spirit is the key. The Ordinances of Baptism, the sacrament, temple work is the key to unlocking the power to return to him- those are all made possible through the spirit. He is the missing link, the spirit it converts, comforts, cleanses and connects us to heavenly father and Christ. It is by the spirit that we can know we are clean, we can receive personal revelation. Through our obedience and faith and a love of God, we are worthy to have the spirit direct our lives.
 Listening to the spirits promptings:

2 Sundays ago I was driving home from church, listening to Taylor Swift. I realized I probably shouldn’t be listening to that on Sunday, so I shut my music off. As I drove in silence the name of a boy who I had known from a year of two prior came to my mind, and I felt an impression to contact him. To reach out and see how he was doing. This honestly surprised me, because we were never really friends… in fact I remember him not always being the nicest person to me. He was very rough around the edges and often came across in such a way that would create fear or negativity towards the people around him. However I remember the rare occasion when I would see past, and see a child of God in him. I could see that there was someone who had the ability to love others incredibly.  As I continued to drive home I again felt as if I needed to reach out to him, so when I got home I messaged him on Facebook and said something along these lines;  I don’t know if you remember me or not... but today I had a feeling that I needed to contact you. I know that sounds weird. But I just wanted to check in on you and see how everything’s going in your life? What have you been up to? I’m sorry this is so random. But I just couldn’t ignore the prompting. He responded with much appreciation for the concern as he had been struggling with some things in his life, and I was the last person in the world he ever though would reach out to him, but was forever grateful I had listened to that prompting. We were able to talk briefly about how heavenly father loves each one of his children and will never stop reaching out towards them to come back into his fold.
I know that the spirit prompted me that day to let my friend know that God does love and care about him. When we listen to the promptings of the spirit to guide our lives we are able to be instruments in God’s hands to reach out to his children. “Listening to the spirit is something very personal and different for each one of us. But I know that as you strive to keep yourselves worthy the spirit will guide your life.”
The spirit is what will guide me as a missionary, to know what to say, where to go, and will speak when I am not able to. (Literally!)

As we are worthy, have faith in Christ and a love for the work and people we are serving we will be able to have the companionship of the spirit in all that we do. I know that is true, because I have experienced it in my own life.

Christ is the reason.

When you know that, nothing else matters.
I know that Christ really did live, and he in reality died for me that I can return to him. That not only my sins can be forgiven, but that any hurt, pain, doubt, or loneliness can be taken away. The burdens of life are lifted, and he will give you rest.
Christ is the basis for all that we do. He is the reason we do missionary work. He is the reason why I am going on a mission.
“Without the Savior and His Atonement, there would be no good news to spread. Without Him, temple work would be in vain. Our progress would stop. But He did partake of the bitter cup and "finished [His] preparations unto the children of men" (D&C 19:18–19). As we come to know Him and to "learn . . . that there is no other way or means whereby man can be saved, only in and through Christ" (Alma 38:9), we become better students, we have a stronger influence on others, we serve more faithfully as missionaries, we raise better families, and we become worthy to return to him.”
It’s a daily battle to make the decision to follow Christ. We have to have a current testimony of Christ daily. It’s something we have to work at one step at a time. We can’t do it all in one dose, It is up to each one of us to be worthy to return to him.
(Bear quick testimony)
In the name of Jesus Christ amen.
 
 
* Please forgive me for not posting all the references used... if you really want to know I can get them all you you! :)