November 6, 2012

Happy P-Day! :)
Come to the Edge he said, "No we'll fall!"
Come to the Edge he said, " No we'll fall!"
Come to the Edge he said! ...So we went to the edge.
And he pushed us.
And we flew.
- Elder Holland.

I was thinking about this simple poem today, and realized how true it applies into our lives. Too often we let our fears and doubts hold us back from doing things that we can do because of the fear of failure. As I read in Ether 12 this week in verse 12 it talks about how God can ONLY perform miracles if we have faith first. It made me realize that even though God has the ability to do anything, it is based on our agency that he can work in our lives to perform miracles. The more doubt we have and walls we put up to keep God out, the better it will work. If you are looking for God's hand in our life you need to do something, you need to walk to the edge! you need to open that door he's knocking at, you need to get down on your knees and pour out your heart and soul to him, you need to open up the scriptures ( especially the Book of Mormon) and feast upon the words of Christ. I know that as I have faith and take that first step to have faith - I open doors for God to bless me, and I really have seen miracles everyday.

This week was an interesting week. My language seems to be suffering a bit, but I am getting stronger and stronger everyday. I'm able to work through the rough days and stay strong and immovable in my efforts and keep my positive attitude. On Sunday we had something really crazy happen! our branch president received a phone call from our mission president saying that we were going to have a "special  guest" come for our fast and testimony meeting. - We weren't told who it was, just that we needed to be on time, and stand when his guest walked in the door. When the time came, I was suprised to see Elder Evans from the first quorm of the 70! I don't know why he decided to come, the mission president made it every clear that this NEVER happens. General Authorities don't just show up for an hour sacrament meeting, bear their testimony and then leave. But It was incredible. He said some amazing things, and at the end of his testimony he said something that I will never forget. He bore his testimony of his special witness of the Savior, and blessed each of the missionaries in my Zone to be able to have the same witness of the divinity of the Father and the Son as strong and as sure as the general authorities. He said until we have the faith to have that witness for ourselves, that we should remember that that day he stood before us and bore a bold witness as someone who knows. The spirit was so strong, It was an incredible experience.

This week I was called to be the Coordinating sister for my Zone, which means I'm the female version of a zone leader. I'm super excited to be able to serve the sisters, and I hope that I will be able to do all that I can to reach out to each one of them in love, and support them as we try to learn this language. Something that really hit me yesterday in my leadership training was the reason we come to the MTC. They said that most people think you come to the MTC to learn the Gospel, or how to teach, or how to speak a language. But the real reason we come to the MTC is to become converted to Christ- if the missionaries who come to the MTC learn who their Savior is and their heart is changed, and they become converted unto Christ- You won't have to teach the missionary how to convert others, they will beable to do it by their selves because the testimony of the reality of God the Father and Jesus Christ will be so sure for them that they will not be able to do anything but bear testimony from the bottom of their hearts.

Elder Holland said something that I really hit me and made me appreciate all the people in my life who have helped to teach me, to be my role models and friends. I know that I am here in the MTC because of people like you. Somebody like you taught somebody like me. I know that I am not yet who I am going to be at the end of this life, or where I will end up in 30 years from now- but everything that I am is a result of the people who taught it to be. I just wanted to take this opportunity to that every person who has had any role in my life, and let you know that I really am who I am today because of your influence in my life. I would not be the same person, if I hadn't met every single person I have. I'm so grateful for family and friends who have taught me how to love and to be a friend to everyone. I am especially grateful that my parents raised me in an enviorment where I was able to feel the spirit and come to understand who God is, and the plan he has for me.
Thank you for loving me, even on days where I wasn't teach able. That is the most beneficial thing that you could have done for me, or that you can do for anyone who is struggling. Love them first. It makes all the difference.

With all my love,
Sister Sulz,

p.s- sorry there are no pictures today, I forgot my SD card thingy in my room! I'll post some next week for sure.