November 27, 2012

I can't believe it's my LAST P-DAY at the MTC! That seems insane. It went by way too fast thats forsure!
I've had a really good experience here, it's been really hard! But I've learn't a lot. There is so much more work I need to do in order to be ready for Korea on Monday, but I have Faith that as I take this leap of Faith Heavenly Father will help me each day. My teacher Brother Pendly pulled me aside yesterday for my last interview and asked me if I feel like I've accomplished my Goals I set for myself for the MTC, and what my goals are for the field. I'm not going to lie I was having a really hard day with the language and feeling inadequate so I honestly wasn't able to say that much to him. It must have seemed like I had no goals or made no progressing in the MTC so far, but last night I was able to write out my goals and accomplishments since being at the MTC, and what I want to accomplish on my mission in Korea.
The Language is my biggest barrier thats for sure, it's challenging to set goals that don't relove around the fact that I still struggle with the language, but I've been able to start to understand what God needs me for. I have no doubt at all that Heavenly Father is here with me every single day. I feel God's love for me each day, and really that thing alone is what keeps me going. I know that there are people in Korea who need this message, people who God needs me to reach out to and serve, and I'm not going to let the language stop me from doing that.
( Of coarse, most of my goals have to do with learning the language). I will learn it tho! :) I just need to learn to be more patient with myself, diligent in my studies, full of love towards others, and 100% obedient. It really is a refinning process. I feel like that Mormon message - (the Gardener one) ... I feel like Heavenly Father is cutting me down so that he can make me what he needs me to be. I'm grateful for the opportunity to dedicate my life to him, and to this great work. I'm grateful for the things he is teaching me every day, but no matter how much you sugar coat it- being cut down is painful. It's challenging, but it's worth it. I am so glad that Heavenly Father loves me enough to show me my weaknesses, and to help me make them stronger.

Thank you for all the support from home! I love getting your letters and appreciated your testimonies. I'm sorry I haven't been able to respond to everyone, I will try to send something before Christmas to everyone!

Don't forget that Miracles are real! I see them every single day, and love hearing about yours!

With all my love,
Sister Sulz