October 23, 2012

Hello Family :)

Its official! We have moved up in the MTC life, and are now the " Older District". The older group of Korean Speakers left early yesterday morning and we are getting our new group on the 31st! Everything is good here, most days are hard- but all are fun :)

I was reading in 2 Nephi 24 yesteday where Nephi is discouraged because of his iniquities & because he is letting things get to him. However admists his trials all he says is, you know that- I trust the Lord. No matter what happends, and even though days are hard - I trust Him. That really hit me because being on a mission is hard. Learning Korean is hard. learning to work with a companion is hard. But in the end the only thing that matters is that I trust my Heavenly Father and I know that with him I can do anything. I know that my call to Korea was directly from him, and I may not know why exactly or who it is that I need to help- I trust that he does. I trust that he knows I will struggle with the language- but he has a purpose behind it. I trust that there is something I need to learn from every experience I have. And that in its self makes me not worry about anything. I trust Him- so I'm going to work as hard and as diligently as I can each day, love everyone I meet and strive to do what he would have me do, because thats what he needs me to do. I trust him to help me, and he trusts me to work!!

 

This week was a rollercoaster!! I was able to hear from Elder Bowman, and Sister Ann Dibb ( President Monsons Daughter!.. I even gave her a hug)

Here are some quotes I wrote down from Elder Bowmans Fireside:

- When you think the mission is going to be hard- when its hard- it wont seem as hard :P

- Burn yourself out on the mission- it's not a marathon- it's a sprint

- Recieveing the spirit is not a one time event- it's a life long process

- If your Almost Obiedient you Almost get he blessings

- The Book Of Mormon doesn't need us. We just need to get it into the hands of the people and the Lord will do the rest.

 

Sister Ann Dibbs was Amazing! It amazes me how the General Authorites really are just everyday people - It makes me appreciate my relationship wih my Heavenly Father that much more. I realized how real he is in my life! It's hard to explain the closeness I feel to him being on a mission. He really is with me, I can feel him and can see his hand in my life eachday. He speaks to me and I can sence him listening to each prayer I say.

Quick Experience from this week :

On Wednesday my companion and I were teaching our investigator, and I felt like this lesson was going to be Awesome! We had alot of time to prepare our Korean outline and I felt pretty good about it. Well as I've learn't, things hardly ever go as planned.. The lesson completely fell apart, and I left the lesson feeling discouraged and self critial. I felt like crying - but I didn't, in stead that night I knelt by my bed and prayed with my whole heart that Heavenly Father would help me to speak the Korean Language. I know that he can do anything, and if I work as hard as I can- and have enough faith He will give me the gift of tounges. I felt the spirit around me - comforting me and telling me that he was aware of my struggles and would help me.

Friday was my next lesson with this particular investigator and my companion and I were going over our lesson in Korean earlier that morning. I couldn't seem to pronouce the words correctly or remember what Grammar forms to use - but I diligently kept practicing and studying. When the time came to teach I still didn't feel prepared, I hadn't been able to get through a topic without messing up. But before we went into the lesson I prayer that the spirit would guide me to know the words that I needed to say. In the Lesson my companion was amazed that by some miracle I was able to say practically everything perfectly! I was overcome with a Love and appreciation for God's hand in my life. The gift of tounges is real- and in that lesson I saw God working through me to give me the ability to speak clearly. I obviously have SO much work to do, and I'm still making thousands and thousands of mistakes every day- but I know that as I am diligent and work hard - The Lord will help me. It's such a good feeling to be reasured of God's love and awareness of me.

 

Korean is hard - I struggle with it everyday. It's hard- but its through those hard days that make me stronger. Being on a mission is like a rollercoaster- really! Some days are harder than you ever imagined, but others are the happiest days of my life. Heavenly Father really knows how best to teach me, and by humbling myrself and working through the tough times - he blesses me more than I ever could imagine! I am filled with so much love and apprecition for my Heavenly Father, and how much he teaches me every day. I know that he loves me- I feel it more evidently here than I ever have before. I know that he's there at the door knocking- and we only need to turn the handle and let him in. He will be there in the though times to give you small miracle and tendermercies to help  you pick up and keep going.

I'm so greatful to be here on a mission, there really is no place I'd rather be. I love being a missionary, I love learning and growing and being stretched in ways I have never been. But I trust in God. I know there is a purpose for my experiences. And I  know that what I am learning now is preparing me for something else.

Life is good :) There is so much Joy to be felt if we only are diligent enough to keep pushing through the hard days, let God take over your life and you will see miracles.

 

I love all of you and appreciate all the love and support I've recieved on my mission so far. I am greatful for your prayers and love and letters ^_^ .

I'm trying to attatch pictures- but I don't seem to know how to do it... I'm trying tho! haha You will have some soon I promise!

With all my Love,

Sister Sulz

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